Friday, December 29, 2006
many times i have fell, and many times i have gotten up. but did i ever realise that when i fell, is because i am not careful when walking, so it is not merely all about getting up, it is more than that. it is about how not to fall at the same fault again. learn not to be stumbled by the same rock that gets in ur way.
...maybe i am right...it is not a breakthrough in my life, but jus a repeat of ranting on and on... in fact in my life journey, when i am stumbled by a stone, i will pick up the stone and throw in ahead and later in my life i will be stumbled by the same stone again. when i did not learn from mistakes, i will be stumbled by the same problem again, the only way of preventing that is solving the problems, but when will i do that? it is only through solving the problems, then the stone will disappear from my journey. if i do not solve them i will only face more problems and get hindered more.
today is a boring day for me, internet is not really working due to the taiwan earthquake...i could have finish my report if i did not wander off to play games. school is reopening soon, and more challenges are awaiting ahead. i did not spend my holidays fruitfully, as i did not care to clear my doubts on studies, on music,on basketball, on my relationships with those around and most importantly the doubts of my abilities. how many more times do i have to fall in order to learn my lesson? i really sick of it, sick of feeling disappointed... play basketball with ernie ytd, i have long seen his passion for basketball, for his studies. but he never fail to inspire me. i really have to wonder, do i really have passion for basketball. if i do, why aint i improving if i put my heart in. hmm...ernie asked me to enter into medicine with him if we both could. i was speechless, cos i have doubts in myself. many times i have tried to focus and concentrate, but every time i wander off in boredom...
there are many things in my life i have regrets with... and i know feeling regretful is useless, it jus show that i have forgone things that mean a lot to me... what i can do now is ripping the opportunity of any regret that i may have, but i have lost many battles till now...i hate the feeling of being lonely, helpless and disgusted. how many times have i keep my feelings, thots and emotions inside? i jus couldnt get myself to... why do we have to put on a struggle when we know it is impossible? miracles are not always happening, at least not in my life...do i have to put on the struggle and move on? or jus give up and stay upon....if life is meant to be like this, this is not my life...
in times when i need someone to be there, there is only no one.
posted at 5:14 AM
wishes
~ I Knew I Love You ~
A normal person leading a normal life in his own unique WAY...
Name : Lawrence Poon Wei Hao
Current School: NUS
Birthday : 19 Aug 1989
Age : 21
Horoscope : Leo
Song: I Knew I Love You
` Wishes.
~*~ Everyone around me is happy ~*~
~*~ Songs of my own ~*~
~*~ Be Happy of my life ~*~
~*~ Hope that all my wishes will come true ~*~
` Music Playing.
* By Savage Garden
Way is the will to go...the way to go is will
Music is my style, my Way.
Savage Garden
Ah Qin
Jay Zhou Jie Lun
Sam Li Sheng Jie
Hins Zhang Jing Xuan
Tank
Lee Hom
David Tao Zhe
JJ Lin Jun Jie
William Pang Wei bo
Wu Ke Qun
Gary Cao Ge
Nicky Lee Jiu Zhe
Z Zhang Zhi Cheng
Van Fan Yi Chen
Zhang Dong Liang
Guang Liang
Ping Guan
Show Luo Zhi Xiang
Daniel Chen Xiao Dong
Jacky Zhang Xue You
FEMALE SINGER
Jolin Tsai Yi LIn
Penny Dai Pei Ni
Jiang Mei Qi
Landy Wen Lan
Liang Jin Ru
Zhang Shao Han
GROUP
Tension
Wu Yue Tian
S.H.E
Fei Lun Hai
B.A.D
OTHER SONGS
Cai Hong Tian Tang by Liu Geng Hong
Bu Zhi De by Meng Fei Chuan
Ai Wo Bie Zou and Fen Shou Ba by Zhang Zheng Yue
Mei Ren Yu and I Still Believe(with Gary Cao ge) by Vivian Hsu
Hai Shi Hui Xiang Ta by Sun He Yao Shan