``Way to Go....Memories stay on But Life moves on...**

Monday, May 03, 2010

Waaa so long no blog wor. haha i think nowadays like only girls blog, while guys just as usual kao pei to their buddies.

Okay first, i will touch on what happened during this few years when i seems to be detached from the living world. I was serving my NS at Tengah Air Base as a RP, air trooper or Force Protection Trooper whatever you want to call it. Basically, what we did was security guard's job plus alil of unglam jobs including cleaning the drains! But the best thing was that i got my sec sch fren, zhen yang there haha...at least still not that bad. BMT got einstein's reincarnation, Ji wei's company and unit life got MJ-in-the-making, zhen yang's company. I guess i am really much luckier than many guys in the veggie uniform out there. Anyway i have ORD-ed and served the nation for two years, marking yet another milestone in my life.

After that took up several jobs before ending up in Biopolis - MOH/NMRC. Even though i am just working as a temp admin there, i learnt a lot things not just all about knowledge and skills but also about the life working in office. This job enriches my com knowledge which was pathetic to start with and barely acceptable up to date. It also enables me to know a lil more about the medical fields and bio medical in terms of research. Ok and most imptly i have made some colleagues-friends during my work. Maybe just a short period of time spent together, but i enjoyed and appreciate it alot. For three of them, Xuan Hong , Carrie and Xiang Hong, i really hope to keep in touch with you all cos u all are just so cool. Feel guilty and bad that i dint get anything for them when they left haha i just dunno what to get...what an excuse man.

Xuan Hong - A dude who was one of the first person i befriended in the office, same age as me but much taller than me. WTH, always make me appear so short whenever i stood beside him. In contrast to me, he is a plant-lover who is both smart and passionate towards his life. The chats on facebook during office hours, the laughter during lunchs and the after-work rants will definitely etch in certain part of the brain. Thanks for the talks and laughter shared.

Carrie - Like a younger sister to me as she is one year younger.Came to our office just for a month but her smiles never fail to brighten the office otherwise tense atmosphere and brighten up our days. Once when i was too busy and sick to go for lunch, she actually handed me a sweet and energy bar, that is how sweet she is to her frens. She loves to bake and everyone knows that, wonder why? Look at the photocopy machine in the morning and you will see loads of baking recipes. Whose? I guess the answer is obvious. Yes, it belongs to our dear Carrie. And is funny how she always complain that she is too free and is funny how she catches naps during lunch hour. Yes, she have found a better job and i am glad for her. Thanks for the sweet treats, the day-brightened smiles and care and concern you had shown.

Xiang Hong - A friend who is trustworthy and worth having. She is a reliable person who takes her work seriously. Is not like the rest of us dont take our work seriously, is just that not as much as her. Given her heavy workload, she never complain and always maintain her smile. During lunch hours, we will always chit-chat for some moments before going back to the warzone. Thanks for being a sweet companion, colleague and friend.

I guess we should appreciate what others have for us. Really hope to see them soon=)

Recently, with the departure of a JC classmate, Ying Jie, it makes me realise the uncertainty and fragility of life once again. I not going to touch on the the sadness i saw in his family's eyes or the sorrows we as his friends feel. Instead, I am going to talk about our dear friend, Ying Jie.

I wasnt very closed to you during JC days, even though we were classmates we seldom have the chance to be in the same subject class. However, your presence were very much feel by us. You would always join me, Ivan and Jin-e during lunch, civics periods. To me, you were someone who never bow down to the obstacles in front of you, the hardship you underwent and instead faced them with a smile. However, i was very shocked that you once shed tears for bio test. I was totally oblivious about that and i am indeed very shocked. Yes, we are all human , we all shed tears when we feel sad. But what i am trying to say is, when i saw you, you were always with a smile. And i took this fact for granted, i never once shown more concern of your studies and life.

I am always talking crap, rubbish and nonsense with most of my friends. I never once take a step further to understand them, to understand how they are doing. Is never too late to learn, your departure has made me awaken from my apathetic attitude towards life. Life is all about happiness but not the way i am having them by being happy-go-lucky, hecking care about everything. Is about sharing that encompasses giving and taking.

I remembered i once saw someone which i was 90% sure it was you, at Chua Chu Kang Interchange while returning to camp. However, i dint call out to you, as i thought we can always talk during the next outing or what which i always seem to miss. And i hurried off back camp. I dint expect the next time i saw you, you were lying there in the ICU unit. There i stood with Jason Foo, looking at you from outside the glass doors. We both felt helpless and sad to see you in there, to see the heartbroken faces outside the wards. Jason and i went to have a drink and caught up with each other. We were both hiding our emotions with jokes and laughter, however we both knew we werent what we appeared to be.We just dont want to worsen the atmosphere by talking about how fragile life is.However, I am not telling you how sad we feel, instead i am telling you that we all felt heartbroken because we all love you as a friend, as a classmate, as a CCA mate, as a brother, as a son and as an individual for who you are.

Is inevitable to feel heartbroken for losing you, however i truly believe that you would want us to smile like you always do when we think of you instead of dwelling on the tragedy. Yes, your fighting spirit, your smiles, your never-say-die attitude towards life will bring everyone on with their lives i believe. Ying Jie, i know that you have not left everyone, instead you will continue to live in our heart.

Following that, i realised the other party involved in the accident was my GP classmate, Jun Han. I heard from news that, he will be facing charges in Phuket. Hope he will be fine. He used to crap with me like i always was during GP lessons. Even though we lost contact, you always are a topic between one of my army friend who happened to be your friend.

A vacation took for a turn and became tragedic. One left us and one facing charges. A lesson for everyone, never take anything for granted.

Next, i am going to share about what has happened to me, myself.

One night, went with wayne, jj (both my sec sch fren) and a few friends for some drinking session at St James Powerhouse. Werent really in the mood for both me and wayne, thot we can loosen our mood to relieve ourselves. After drinking, went to jj's house to sleep. Just before i managed to sleep, my heart was pounding erratically once again. Had been experiencing this since sec sch, except this time seems to be more serious. In the end, I was taken to TTSH's A&E via an ambulance that jj has called. Yes, it's serious but not life-threatening.

I am sharing this because, it made me realise some things. First, thanks JJ for being such a great friend and Wayne of cos. They were both very worried about me, especially JJ who accompanied me to TTSH and waited there for hours outside,both worried and tired(as he dint really sleep).
Secondly, I brought worries to my family. I really feel so bad about that, even though it may not be my fault to have this condition. However, is my fault to consume alcohol which indirectly caused this whole episode. And yes i love my family and friends, and i will try my best to abstain from alcohol and i must! Sometimes, an action done not only implicates the person himself but also the ones around him. Therefore, think for others before you do something especially silly ones.

Alright, is 4.33am in the morning.... enough sharing by lawrence and is time to sleep. Good night, readers, dont be idiotic and sleep early!=P

posted at 3:00 AM

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